Music has been an important influence on the Demon Within series, helping me get into a specific mood to be in Cami’s mind, which isn’t always—actually mostly isn’t—a bright, sunny place. She goes through several devastating circumstances through the series that change her, which changes the feel of the each book. Scorned was a particularly hard book to write because Cami struggles with everything that she is—everything she thinks is wrong with her or everything wrong that has been done to her to put her in the situation she’s in. There’s a particular feeling I felt throughout writing Scorned, and I wanted to share the music that helped me capture the essence. I hope you enjoy my compilation.
- Feel Again by OneRepublic
This song would be the theme song for Cami in Scorned. (Spoilers ahead) As you know if you’ve read Haunted, Cami gets pushed to the point where she no longer cares. In Scorned, Cami learns what it’s like to feel again, and the feelings push her toward change.
“It’s been a long time coming since I’ve seen your face
I’ve been everywhere and back trying to replace
Everything that I broke till my feet went numb
Praying like a fool who just shot a gun
Heart still beating but it’s not working
It’s like a hundred thousand voices that just can’t sing
I reached out trying to love but I feel nothing
Oh my heart is numb
But with you, I feel again
And with you, I can feel again”
- Ashes of Eden by Breaking Benjamin
This song reminds me Cami’s darkest moments in the series. She spends a lot of time wondering why things are the way they are, and her silent questions that never receive the answer in the way she wants, leave her feeling more alone than ever.
“Will the darkness fall upon me
When the air is growing thin
Will the light begin to pull me
To its everlasting will
I can hear the voices haunting
There is nothing left to fear
And I am still calling
I am still calling to you”
- Love Runs Out by OneRepublic
This song encompasses the lighter, feistier moments with Cami. It’s a song she might listen to in her Mustang while flying well over the speed limit with Evan in the passenger’s seat. It’s perfect to describe the heat (pun intended) of Cami’s and Evan’s relationship.
“I got my mind made up and I can’t let go.
I’m killing every second ’til it sees my soul.
I’ll be running, I’ll be running,
‘Til the love runs out, ’til the love runs out.
And we’ll start a fire, and we’ll shut it down,
‘Til the love runs out, ’til the love runs out.”
- Little Do You Know by Alex & Sierra
This song captures how much Cami tries to hide and control her emotions when they threaten to ruin her, especially when it comes to her relationship with Evan.
“Underneath it all I’m held captive by the hole inside
I’ve been holding back
For the fear that you might change your mind
I’m ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight
Little do you know, I need a little more time.”
- Empty Apartment by Yellowcard
The final song in my short playlist is Empty Apartment. The song captures Cami’s relationship with Dylan and how Dylan wants nothing more than to help Cami in her loneliest, darkest moments, where she doesn’t know what to do or how to feel. He’s willing to risk his own heart even if she could possibly break it.
From this nightmare
How’s your life
What’s it like there
Is it all
That you want it to be
Does it hurt
When you think about me
And how broken my heart is.”
Thanks for reading! I’ve included my youtube playlist if you’re interested in listening to any of the songs.